Hey there everyone!
So last week I celebrated my Chinese New Year. I guess if I hadn’t
made my resolutions by the English New Year, I had a second chance to do so. I
know I am extremely late to the party in wishing everyone a happy new year and
a prosperous 2016, but better late than never right?! May this be our year so
make every moment count!
I realise I have been quite absent over the past few months,
after and during exams last year I feel like I kind of lost myself. I allowed
the actions of others get to me and self-doubt crept in. I would question
everything I did, from actions to even things I would say. It wasn’t a very
healthy place. And I guess it’s kind of embarrassing to admit this on social
media because it sounds as if I am a nutcase right? But I know I am not, I’m
just an extremely sensitive person when it comes to others. I tend to feel
emotions more than the average person I guess. And I didn’t want this
uncertainty to show in my posts.
Towards the end of last year, I was fortunate enough to
travel overseas. I went to Hong Kong. With exploring a new country and
experiencing many new and exciting things, I managed to do a little soul
searching and reflecting along the way. I set some boundaries for myself. Even
though I already seemed to have done this last year, I felt the need to expand on
them this year. Certain things I will and will not tolerate, erasing all
aspects of negativity and concentrating on the positives (and not to mention
myself, and my goals and things that are important to me). This does not mean I
will cut people out of my life and become conceited with myself, it’s just a
matter of putting myself and the things that are most important to me first in
life. I tend to always put others ahead of myself, worrying about the next
person before seeing to myself, and even though many people would say it’s a
good trait to have, it has played to my detriment. Because it has always been a
part of who I am, others tend to take advantage of it and constantly expect it
of me. I’ve been hurt countless times along the way and I guess it comes a time
when it’s enough.
So this year I have vowed to try new things and explore
places I have never been to. Learn new things about myself, the people and places around me, and to really take them in. Expand my horizons (not that I live in a shell and
haven’t come out of it, just merely stepping out of my comfort zone), meet new
people that will add value to my life in positive aspects. Just basically growing. Testing myself.
Not to dwell on the things I cannot change, matters of the past or people that
do not influence me in a positive manner.Do the things that make me happy and will put my mind and heart at ease. Sounds like basic things we all
should already know right? But it’s so easy to get stuck in a negative space and
allow negativity to dictate without even realising it. So here’s to a 2016 of
testing myself and pushing my inner limits, concentrating on only the positives
in my life, and creating memories with people that are deserving. Because at
the end of the day you are the only person who is in charge of your fate! You are
the only one who can stop yourself!
I hope everybody has a prosperous and happy 2016! May the year ahead be filled with amazing opportunities!
Thank you
all for reading :)
Muchos
Love
The Looi
Look.
xxx